Advice I would Give My Younger Self
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At 9 you will discover feel that you are
So grown up-and in too many ways you are
Because you have to be but please remember
That it’s okay to be a kid
So if your mother tells you that you’re acting childish
Remind her that you are a child, and that you can’t always
Be an adult
2. At 11 you will find that you’re not everyone’s cup of tea
You can be so honest, so uninhibited by others expectations
Don’t feel ashamed for that. Don’t worry that
You don’t have friends because one day that
Confidence will be your greatest strength
And you will have the best friends you could ever ask for
3. At 12 you will withdraw from yourself and you won’t even
Realize what’s happening until you can’t breathe
But you are so brave and smart and strong so please
Don’t let go of that in anger and fear
It’s okay to have questions about yourself and the world
But don’t let go of your entire life just to find the answers
4. At 13 all of the things that have happened to you will
Finally hit you. Don’t feel ashamed for that. You are not your
Damage you are the way you carry yourself in spite of it.
Even if you’re crawling. Even if you’re gasping.
You are not your damage, love.
5. 13- you are not alone. You may have to create your own family
And it may scare you to let people so close to your heart
But you shouldn’t go it alone
You will not lose who you are just because you’re
Holding someone’s hand
6. 13- it really does get better you just have to
Remember who you are and you have to learn
To balance the soft and the tough sides of you
They are both beautiful but you have to use them together
And when you do things will be SO MUCH BETTER
Remember who you are in your soul
7. At 14 you will still be recovering from 13
But honey you don’t need to escape to another world
To be better. You have all the tools you need
Right there within yourself. So stand on your own two feet
The books and movies are great but you
Have to be present in your life
8. At 15 you will fall in love. She will be mesmerizing
You won’t be able to see past her and please
Please do not worry. Do not let your fear ruin this.
She loves you she loves you but you can’t
Project your worry on her because
She is dealing with her own fears
But you will be so in love and you will learn so much
9. At 16 you’re going to lose yourself. She will
Consume everything that you are
But at 16 you will also find yourself again.
You will stop looking for the sun in her and find it in yourself.
So slow it down, enjoy each stage as it comes because
You will get where you need to be I promise.
10. At 17 enjoy every moment with your best friend.
Eat so much sonic you could burst at the seams
Take so many drives that you could walk the roads
Of this city with your eyes closed. Be a fucking kid.
Embrace your crazy, don’t walk on eggshells
You’re 17! Be insane. Relish in 17. It will always
Remain in your soul. Remember who you are at 17.
Live for yourself.