My name means healing

But I wonder if she knew that

From the life she lived I thought that maybe my name signified

Destruction

Pandemonium

Chaos  

 

That I was bastard personified

That I was cursed from the point of my conception

That I was destined end up on someone’s negative statistic study

 

My name means God hath healed

But I don’t know if God had anything to do with my afflictions

My fetal alcohol syndrome

My underdeveloped bones

 

Maybe

She needed healing  

 

Maybe

The hopes she had for her life she passed on to mine

 

Maybe

She saw through her polluted mind and noticed the disadvantaged she put me in

 

So in order to heal me before the pain began

In order to turn my fate into a future

In order to solidify a foundation I could build from

 

She made sure healing would be mine

That I could be become the healthy and driven young man I am today

That I would be guaranteed access to the benefits attached to RAPHEAL

 

It’s my name and it’s no mistake it was meant for me

I Am Healing