Do a lot of things first, and put God last

And I know it isn't right, I do so wrong

And I'm addicted, because I've been doing it for so long

Sometimes my mind be so far gone

Feel like it isn't coming back, so I just sit

Stare into space, nervous, and anxious got me walking at a different pace, at times I wonder, if God really looks at me

He can change me, but I got to change myself first

Can't say I'm trying, can't say I want change

But something's gotta give, so this will be the first thing