Words,

Light and sweet, like cotton candy,

Soak into a sugar dribble.

 

Words,

Hot and harsh, like habanero peppers,

Sting into a capsaicin burn.

 

Words,

I write because I cannot speak,

My mouth sewn, as my wrists bleed.

 

Words,

They are my disease,

They spin and whirl, like a merry-go-round

And I’m about to be sick.

 

Words,

Why don’t you leave?

They all hate you.

Trash, just take yourself out.

 

Words,

Why didn’t you say this?

Why couldn’t you say that?

Why can’t you just ask for help?

 

Words,

Why do you torment me?

Why is it that my depression and torment,

My inner demons and conflict,

Are my beautiful muse?

 

Words,

Why do you keep me up at night?

Castrate and rape me,

When you know,

You are my only release.

 

Words,

You’ve been my partner in crime,

Cover-ups and lies,

“I’m fine, I’m fine!”

All that we’ve been though.

 

Words,

I have been told I have a silent disease,

But you know better,

We’ve only had each other,

Because you push everyone else away.

Words,

I love you,

I hate you,

I miss you,

I need you.

 

Words,

You show my weakness,

Have brought arms and arms around me,

Crying until there are no

 

Words

You show my strength,

Hurled against friends and enemies alike,

You sent people out the door

Heard from no more,

Because there are no more

 

Words.