Poems from thatcrazyfishlady
I finally spit it out.
I finally told all.
I finally admitted it.
I did it.
I regret it, but not really.
I know a part of me does,
but...
I know it's over
even though
it never really began...
I know it's gone,
with no chance
of ever coming back.
But in my head
and my heart...
I am not okay.
This is all a lie.
I'm not who you think.
Let me clarify.
I spend my days
laughing off my pain;
I spent my nights...
I don't know if
I'm anxious
or depressed
or suicidal
or really if I even exist.
All I know is
nothing seems real
and all I can feel
is...
I'm wide awake.
Night fell long ago;
morning rose to take its place.
I hide my face
from the light.
The peace of sleep
never graced my...