you were once my person

I didn’t expect amazing things

I knew how you felt

and how you didn’t

but I didn’t need your wings

 

I knew I’d be okay with it

cause we used to talk for hours

it didn’t matter about what

the subjects never soured

 

I only wanted, never needed

so I was content with just a person

someone who could just concede

of someone I’d be certain

 

That all changed within a night

I thought it’d be okay

you made a move

I made one too, so that you’d feel alright

 

with every breath and every touch

I tried to let you know

let you know

and let you know

That I cared for you so much

 

But then things began to change

I was back to being four

under a man

inside a red van

lying naked on the floor

 

I’d never gone that far before

I didn’t know that’d happen

but when you pulled my hair

and held me close

the child inside reacted

 

For a time you didn’t notice

or maybe didn’t care

that I was shaking underneath you

and couldn’t swallow any air

 

When you did that

two things derived

that slapped me in the face

first, I wasn’t your person,

only filling up a space

 

it never mattered what I’d say

it didn't matter what I did

I was only to be borrowed

till you were ready to start a bid

 

next, you remind me of him

the one who took so much away

the one who forced his way in

and to this day leaves his stain.

 

I had told you about it

said I wasn’t sure of love

I needed someone gentle

not someone devoid of

 

cause the farther we went the less you cared

I wasn’t your person, I was simply there

Now I barely talk, and you can tell

that when I do, there’s voices from hell

 

I can usually bury this deep inside

but now there’s no escape

there’s nowhere for me to hide

it’s tangled in my fate

 

You were once my person

and you reopened the wound

but it’s me who can’t let this go

and it’s me it will consume