"You don't know what I say in my mind
Close to my heart"--"get your face out of their behind!"
"You think you're so this and so that
all that pride and ego talking, take a seat"...so she sat
"Listen hear," he said, "you don't know about me
you think you do, but all you know is what you see
you don't see the hurt and the pain I go through
and if you did would it make it easier for you
will it make you feel sorry for me to see me hurt
I don't pity myself and drag myself through the dirt
Everyone goes through things that others don't know
but if we dwell on the problem, the problem will grow
I'll continue my life only seeing positive sides
not wondering about them and how their boat glides
because why should I be?
I have enough issues on my own
And I'm sure you do too, so leave me alone."
He took some steps back and walked away
left a card on the table with three letters to say
"HIV" it said, and she never knew
that a girl he loved thought her worth was overdue
so she gave herself multiple times
looking for a love that was always there if she opened her eyes.
She was so focused on letting him see his wrong
that she didnt even notice her own list was long
And now she lost her lover because of her petty thoughts
and was left with a card and her stomach in knots.
How did he know before she did?
How could she be so careless, acting like a kid?
Why didn't he say something sooner to her?
but he cared for her so much that it didn't matter .
But he has left her now, not a victim of her crime
she is the only victim, all in her ego and prime.