Without You
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I thought about what it would be like
Without you.
I thought about how that would change me
For flowers bloom and trees root
With the beckoning of spring,
And the chills of winter
Wrapped us in blankets
As we stared into our unwritten future.
The seasons of life
And the New Year
Showing promise of growth,
Transformation and,
Rain.
Taking your hand
I saw you as a tree
And I your daisy.
You became my foundation
And I rooted in you insted of soil
And waited.
Bark blossomed with a beaten beauty
That I interpreted as love
As the thickness from your branches
Shaded me from sunlight.
Your shadow hovered me
Soon consumed me,
Whispering dark delusions,
Manipulations,
Making me masochistic;
Codependence became a comfort
And I thought about what it would be like
Without you.
I couldn't see
The small white flowers dying,
Turning purple from the bruises
Of your words,
Suffocating between the cracks
Of your control
Until they died.
Without you I see
That I tried to hard to grow daisies
In someone else when I should have
Planted them
In me.