when I was starving
when I was left for dead
when I was abandoned
when I was freezing
to death in the winter cold
when I was scorched
by the hot summer sun
when I didn’t have a home to live in
except behind sewing factories
hiding between boxes of fabric
running away in the morning
when I didn’t have baby formula
when I didn’t have diapers
when I didn’t have toys to play with
when we could finally afford a room
only to be evicted
a few weeks later
several different times
when we had to walk miles and miles to the nearest supermarket
on our last legs, on our last couple of dollars
when I had to take turns sleeping either
on the floor or
on an old mattress
never to know what privacy is
when we got a microwave for Christmas
and could finally have hot meals
when we got a small fridge
and I tasted refreshing fizzy soda for the first time
when we got a TV
and I would wake up every Saturday to catch the cartoons
when I grew sick and tired
of eating the same rice and eggs combo at the baby sitter’s
and came to love sneakin’
a bite from one of those ramen packages
when I discovered how comfortable
wearing hoodies could be and
how colorful beach shorts really are
when I had my first crush
only to find out she was no longer a she
ten years later
when I saw my friends-
when I saw them spend time with-
when I saw them happy with both of their parents
a complete family
or how about this, how about
when Ma died.
when I lost everything.
when I didn’t have anyone left.
Where were you man?
When I needed you the most!
When I needed you in my life!
When I needed you to call me your son!
when I needed
where were you?