What I See
Location
You see the laughing and the smile
As I feel the pain and the sorrow
Life is all fun and games
until you lose what you’ve always had
When the sun shines and the bird fly
I’m in my room, trying not to cry
I could be around hundreds of people
and yet feel like I am alone
no one understands me
because everyone is different and it’s never the same
My best friend left
and my friends do, all the time
It feels like everyone has someone except for me
Why do I feel this pain
I might never know
Someone might say because I need to get out more
But how can I when I feel restricted
My friends get to busy for me
They all have someone to be around or somewhere to be
The feeling of illusion clouds my mind
The feeling of confusion makes me want to cry
I feel lost as if I didn’t exist
Tell me what to do I can’t get out of this bottomless pit
I’m missing everyone as my body leaves my mind
I’m going insane as I slowly die
Every day closer and closer we are to death
“Why not just make it go by faster”
my head always says
Life, what’s the meaning
Death, what’s the feeling
Happiness, what’s it feel like
Sadness, it’s always a strike
to the heart and to the soul
Not just a walk in the park
Not just a breath of fresh air
Look around you
what do you see?
Me?
No, it’s the vision of what I want you to see
I’m hiding the real me
Don’t ask to see the real thing
because you can’t handle the truth
And the truth will not set me free