What is this feeling?

What is this feeling?

Well, I can try to describe it, but even I don’t have the words.

You ask me what’s wrong, but sometimes there is no logical answer, so I just don’t say anything.

This feeling inside is like I’m a bottle, slowly filling up with tears of fire

But unable to comprehend the source.

If I knew, I think I would tell you…

I just don’t know.

Why sometimes I feel like there is no one in the world for me, even though my brain tells me that there are

So many people who love me.

I don’t understand why I just can’t be around other people sometimes, any more than you understand why your cat climbs to the top of the bookshelf to hide from all the people.

It’s not a logical feeling.

It’s not something I can control.

But every once in a while that something overflows.

This odd burning feeling in my soul.

And I just can’t explain what it is.

No one said anything that would be considered harmful by a normal person.

No one hurt me physically.

Just sometimes a little word or action will be interpreted as harmful by the emotional side of my brain, even though the logical part says that there’s nothing wrong.

Why do I feel like this?

Sometimes I just feel like my spirit is crying and crumbling.

I feel like I need someone to tell me what’s wrong, because I can’t do it for myself.

It’s not just a sadness, or anger.

I just can’t describe it.

I’m sorry that I make you worry, but I can’t help this feeling.

This drowning sensation.

As though something inside has broken, and I just don’t understand what.

What is this feeling?


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