At the current stage of my life
Full of teen angst and hormones
I am tired already.
I am tired of waking to the same routine
Every single morning I spend half an hour kissing
Not the morning light but my pillow
Because at the on the edge age of seventeen,
I am too tired to appreciate life for what it is.
I am too tired to appreciate nature or
The fact that something in my body is what
Wakes me up or at least tries to.
I am not trying to write this to be deep
Or that perfect coffee shop white girl.
I am tired of fucking white girls.
The idea that the world's problems
Are solved by a hipster white girl Tumblr post
Drives my mind insane.
I am not here to fix anyone
Or to be fixed
As if being tired is something to be solved
Like a stomach flu or like
Society's irrational belief that saying
“It gets better” makes it any better
For the kids tired of being depressed
Bullied, ignored, guilty for ever being the fertilized egg.
I am tired of everything teenagers are meant to love in life
Because we make sleeping pills before
We make waking up pills.
If you ever hear of those though,
Let me know, because
Living isn't worthwhile if I'm stuck
Spending everyday too tired
To appreciate life, nature, love, or the morning light
Just like those hipster Tumblr girls
Writing their quotes in pastel colors
Life should be worth living in.