On the outside you laugh and you smile

you pretend to be happy

you tell me your fine

tell them that everything is alright

but it is not

on the inside you are really dying

your emotions are just trying to escape

but they cannot

because you will continue to burry them

burry them under so many happier thoughts

under memories you made just trying to forget

you will burry them until they cannot breathe

then what

will they finally dissapear

will they leave you alone

maybe even let you be happy

no because you cannot

you can never be happy

not with all the things you have buried inside

building up until they begin to suffocate

eventually they will explode and come out gasping for air

then everyone will know the truth

all the feelings you have hidden

all the secrets

the lies

the pain

the guilt

all of the things that you wanted to forget

it will all come out and then what

then will you be able to live freely

of course not becuase you now will hold the weight of your unsaid words

you will never be free

because oddly enough 

the truth can be the worst burden of all

 

-h.l.