Through Another's Eyes

I feel sad and alone
I feel numb and tired and cold
I’m not someone people love or want around
I want to go get lost in sleep and never be found
Don’t pretend that you need me here
Don’t act like it’s a big deal, there won’t be any tears
When I’m gone, will anyone notice?
When I’m gone, will anyone care?

I’d swallow a thousand pills if I had the guts
And didn’t worry that it might not be enough
I’d put a gun to my head and I wouldn’t say goodbye first
Don’t say this problem’s only temporary ‘cause it just keeps getting worse
I’ll tie weights to my ankles and jump in the ocean
Drowning is so morbid but I’m not even important
When I’m gone, no one will notice
When I’m gone, no one will care

You don’t have time for me and I don’t have time for life
Pretend that you love me, say it’ll be alright, but it’s not
Said you’d be happier without me
Yeah, you’re better off without me
Maybe I’ll tie some sheets around my neck and
Hang myself from my ceiling fan, am I dead?
I feel so dead, so dead, I want to be dead
When I’m gone, you won’t notice
When I’m gone, you’ll pretend you cared

Believe me when I say I don’t mean a damn thing
Believe me when I say I know about all of your lies
Believe it when you hear how I jumped off of a building
Or put blades to my veins, the story of the year
Tell all your friends that you didn’t know anything
And then you’ll laugh for a few days
Say you never saw it coming, there weren’t any warnings
Well I’ll be gone and you’ll be okay
When I’m gone, you will say:

I miss her so much, she was all I had
She made everything better but she was always sad
Shut the fuck up.
You made me feel like I wasn’t enough.
You made me think I couldn’t ever be strong.
Maybe you’re trying to push me over the edge.
Maybe I’m not the only one who wants me dead.
When I’m gone, you’ll all be happier
When I’m gone, you won’t care.

Comments

Arossa_Ameythyst_Midnight

don't give up i alnmost did but i got better

cassey2826

This is in the point of view of someone else, but thanks!

Masterbuddha117

Wow that was really good. And sad I'm sorry to hear about such pain but what doesn't kill us makes us stronger to carry and fulfill our destinies that are there right in front of us bravo I like it!!

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