‘I love you’
I’ve heard that phrase a million bajillion times
I never understood why people like hearing it.
My best friend Roxy says it to her parents
But why would she want to say that?
They’re really nice to her.
I hear mommy and daddy say it all the time
They say it's a good thing
But I don't think so.
Mommy and daddy always say they are happy
But mommy’s always crying
And daddy’s always yelling at mommy
They’re always fighting.
My friends tell me about the radiostations they wake up to
But I couldn't relate
I wake up to arguments
About money, chores, and work.
If that’s what being married is like
I don’t want to be married.
Love doesn’t look fun.
When I started dating him
I was confused
Our relationship was nothing like mom and dad’s
And it didn't feel right.
I offered him my passwords
But he said he didn’t want them
I updated him on my whereabouts 24/7
But he said it wasn’t necessary.
One day he asked me why
I thought those things were mandatory in a relationship
I told him that’s how my parents were like.
Suddenly it clicked
I realized my parent’s relationship wasn’t normal
And that I shouldn’t have been using it as a model.
I wasn’t used to communication
Or trust or equality or respect or compassion or independence
But it felt nice...much nicer than my parents.
I guess marriage doesn’t sound so bad anymore.