I don't understand.
That's all I can say.
It's my life you have banned!
It's the same thing every single day...
The words and the looks,
They cause such pain and strife.
They're like things out of books...
But they cut like a knife.
I think of the mother too busy to care,
She looks but never sees...
That one thing that should deeply scare...
I just want you to help me please!
He tells me to BE PERFECT, but everyday I fail...
I know that he still loves me,
But it hammers in the nails.
He just does not see.
I feel that yearning in my soul,
To help me feel alive.
I take the blade and break my goal,
Hopefully I'll survive?
The power just brings the tears,
And they flow and mix with blood.
I call you even with the fear
You'll turn and run for good.
You always stay and help me,
Though inside I feel worthless.
You pick up the pieces you see,
And make me promise, I say yes.
Inside I'm still burning,
The pain will build and brew.
You understand the yearning,
But still say I love you.