Straight up walking with that Filipino-rooted feet
My mind wanders off in a whirlwind
But this ain’t really about my origins right now
But it’s about me currently
Beyond the bleeds, I hope this poetry demolishes all that negativity and bring back happiness in me
Hopefully will be a poetic justice to combat it mentally and emotionally
And if this can’t translate into bars with a decent pace,
Then there better be a way for me to die with a real smile on my face
Over these past three years, I’ve been feeling weird
Overwhelmed, stressed, depressed,
Am I an emotional wreck?
It’s like all these feelings got caught in a snowball, just kept going,
Rolling, getting bigger that I never got to chop up about or express
Now it’s even harder to analyze what’s really putting me down
I now have to put the effort into smiling instead of a frown
Was told to find the light but now I feel the light betraying me
Folks telling me I seem different
It’s like I’m a walking dead now because I never listened
Never got to pour out all this shit
So it led to setting my mind on the fritz
I blame the societies’ expectation of how girls and boys should be,
Because it made my words as vague as it seems.
I really hope to be redeemed,
Never had the chance to vent, jeez.
I don't know and as redundant as it sounds,
Through these frustrating writings,
Digging through this giant snowball,
I hope to find inner peace and something enlightening.