I will never be trusting, friendly, or loving.

No matter what you say to me I know your lying.

I had to learn the hard way because I was to trusting.

And because of this I was tooken advantage of sexually.

Trusting allowed me to lose my virginity violently. 

The three men said they would take good care of me.

I was lost, needed help, so they led me to an alley.

The pain of being torn through repeatedly was excruciating.

Noone cared enough to stop and save me, my screams, cries and pleads were ignored completely.

This all could have been avoided if I wasn't so friendly.

When I thought I would be helped, I was instead internally bleeding vaginally.

Noone showed me any mercy.

So I am forced to repeteadly relive the painful memories.