Safe but unsafe
Dear Mami,
I know you like it when I call you Mami, instead of Madre
You always said mami sounded sweeter like I loved you more
But no matter what I call you, I will always love you
You are the person who has stood by my side
The person who has always made me feel safe
but you’ve been the person who has made me feel the most unsafe
I have tried to convince myself that everything you say is for my own good
I would ask myself why you can’t just trust I do right
You’ve always been afraid I make mistakes
you would rather keep me from making them
you listen to everything I have to say
but you give me a look full of disgust like I disrespect
I thank you for the lessons you’ve taught me
I value things for what they are
but you belittle me and make me feel like everything I feel is invalid
it’s time for you to hear the truth
I love you Mami
but you have to accept that parents have faults too
I want to thank you for teaching me the biggest lesson life has to offer
to love unconditionally despite flaws
I want you to know everything
But it would break you
I hope one day I’m ready to hand this to you
and you’re ready to receive it
I love you Mami
I hope one day you understand
-Tu hija (Your daughter)