I could never come to terms with how
you viewed me.
You’re so pretty.
You’re so capable.
You have so much potential.
You said that to me the other day.
But none of that means anything if
inside I feel that I am not enough.
How can I accept that validation when
I am no longer validating myself?
I have become so reliant on the feedback
from others that soon enough none
of those words of yours could fight
or stand a chance against my mind.
My thoughts are weighed down by
all my unforgotten errors and all the times
I could have said something but I didn’t.
I didn’t say anything about the times where
I was told I was too much of me.
I needed to
tone it down.
Nobody told me that wasn’t the answer.
I lost my power when I decided that was
what I needed to do.
I gave up myself.
I am sorry that I can not love me
the way that you love me.