"ba​by i don't understand this, your changing

i can't stand this "

 

 

a song the lyrics echoing in my head 

on repeat,

 

maybe its because i am Changing, 

i mean new year new me, right 

 

i have been torn and Destoryed 

by people i thought who loved me 

the strong armor i once wore tore me up from the inside out 

and broke the armor shattering into small pieces 

 

now i wave good bye to the girl that once 

smiled and happiness seethed from her 

only to greet a girl who uses her Sadness and anger as armor

 

the girl i tried to prevent from being,

but shes not all that bad,..

she is just a scared child 

Needing to be held and shown love 

but her screams and cries are only for me to hear

 

because the armor  she wears is impeccable 

and soundproof, everyone hears her roars and fits of rage 

but no one hears the cries late at night 

when she wants to be held and told shes loved 

 

those cries are for me 

on a repeat