I wake up each day, a new dawn,
a new beginning, filled with new possibilities
letting yesterday's failures fade
and yet they stick to me like the sap from a tree.
The world expects to hear that "I'm fine..."
everything is just dandy over here while in my mind
war rages with the person who I am and who I want to be.
They say depression is not of someone but rather a manifestation of your creation.
They say anxiety is nothing but a few nerves here and there
about today's big test and tomorrow's school decathalon.
They say eating disorders (or ED, as I call him) is a choice in which
you are the sole aggressor
really life handed you cards too cruel to admit
and that's unfortunate because life isn't necessarily fair.
Some may say that "there's always a reason" for the
situation you find yourself in
that some power outside your control wants to show you
something you may not have known.
Yet you look away
unsure of what to say to an idea so incredulous
it almost seems like a joke,
BUT REALLY... that's okay
because faith isn't for everyone though it is for some.
And you may only need a good few
to stand by and say "hey, i'm. with. you."
to walk by your side and pick you up when you just want to hide
to make you laugh on the hardest days.
See here, society has this fantasy of what life is supposed to be
but they forget that YOU are uniquely, wonderfully, yourself.
So, Depression may wander the woods of your mind
while Anxiety tried to creep up from behind with ED right by his side
but it's not your fault and it's not invalid
it will always be a part of you.
But that's why we have those good few,
the ones who drag us out of bed and give gifts without national causation,
let you cry until your eyes go red
and still have their own shit to deal with...
but love you too much to not try and brighten your day.
As the sun sets you realize
maybe it's not so bad after all
I may not have alot but I have just enough
and as you drift to the sweet sound of dreams
a smile lay on your face
"i'm fine" no longer holds you captive
knowing that the morning will always come.