I feel so lost,
so stupid for ever thinking it could possibly work.
I never loved you in that way,
but I have always loved her
I want a future with her; I can see I future with her,
but not you not now not ever.
I don`t want you.
I want the one I long for; the one I call out in my sleep for.
I only want to be with her,
but she doesn't return the feeling.
She wants a boy,
She is striaght.
I could never give her what she deserves,
all I have is the love in my heart for her.
I long to hold her,
to kiss her tender lips.
I want to caress her sweet soft check if only once more.
She is all i could ask for,
she is perfect in every way imaginable.
But I must and I will let go,
if only for now.