That One Breakup
Dear J
We met at school
5 years ago
When i met you it was that cheesy thing on the movies that no one thinks it actually happens
But for some reason that day with me it did
When i saw you
The world seemingly stoped
My heart beating faster now
The lights dimming down
A light above your head
Now simply glissining down
A bam of visions hit me
You, Everyone and Me
From that piont on i loved you
You were the new kid
The first person you talked to
As time went by we became friends
You helped me with my shit
I tried helping you and being a friend
But you always seeamed to push me away
I never understood but i do today
2 years went on
We became more then friends
We became on and off
Kept going back
The 4th time we tried
I thought we were playing a more serious game
A forever
Possibly
Then there seamed no future losses
Only gains
We got close
I told you everything All the worry
Blame
I gave you my Religion
My Christianity
I even gave you
My sacrid to me Virginity
And after all this at 3 months or so
Longest relationship
Febuary so
Thought id finnaly have a man on valentines day
Instead 2 weeks before
I found you were cheating on me
I cried, Bawled
Ran ot the room
Just thought after all we been through
After all the times i covered your ass
Bullying me, Verbally abusing me
All that crap
Forgave you
Thought this would be the time
Ended up getting a million lies
You said i been with her for 4 whole years
Wanna make it 7 as he saw my tears
Lied to everyone bout all these years
Didnt think we were meant to last long but now were here
Im sorry
But i cant let go of her years
I went in the bathroom to cry again for all those years
Questioning everything
All we ever was
All my feelings
And i had enough
I knew then what i had to do
Just had to have to guts to do it
Then i broke up with you
Then i was like screw it
Ever since the news i havent been the same
Just keep sitting here thinking
Crying bout the pain
Telling myself one day
Ill be ok
I already got these lessions
I just gotta put them in everyday
Now im done with you
Your not in my life
Cause my legs gave out and got tired
Of caring all the fight
I feels better when were apart
I much as i loved you i dont know were to start
I cant trust you
You dont deserve me
There were more lies then what you agreed
I found i love and strenghth i never knew
I hope you have a good life
Learn your lessions to
Ive forgiven
Im done now
Gonna work on me
My success now
And although the pain
Sometimes holds me back
I got the lessions now to bring me back
Sincerly,
Your New Past
A