For Oe.
For Oe.
If you thought freshman year of high school was cool, you should have seen sophomore year. The drama was at its boiling point and the ratchets were more abundant than ever. Filipino class was enjoyable and ms p taught us about life, but learning about it in a classroom and living it are two completely different things.
Every day was a struggle without you.
I often think about when you were diagnosed and those first few months...
In retrospect, I should have visited you at the hospital. In those months you were in and out of ICU I should have asked to carpool with your regulars or forced my parents to bring me. But they don’t deal with those types of things in the best way and I guess that's where I get it from.
It’s hard to believe that a fifteen year old girl, who lost all her hair and took drugs so toxic that her caregivers had to handle it with gloves, could out-smile a perfectly healthy girl like me.
If you thought freshman year of high school was cool, you should have seen sophomore year. The drama was at its boiling point and the ratchets were more abundant than ever. Filipino class was enjoyable and ms p taught us about life, but learning about it in a classroom and living it are two completely different things.
Every day was a struggle without you.
I often think about when you were diagnosed and those first few months...
In retrospect, I should have visited you at the hospital. In those months you were in and out of ICU I should have asked to carpool with your regulars or forced my parents to bring me. But they don’t deal with those types of things in the best way and I guess that's where I get it from.
It’s hard to believe that a fifteen year old girl, who lost all her hair and took drugs so toxic that her caregivers had to handle it with gloves, could out-smile a perfectly healthy girl like me.
I’d like to take this time to apologize for being too coward to show my face at your doorstep. For being weak. Your strength through those nine months could have lifted the world off its foundation and I couldn’t pick up the phone.
I’m sorry for those meager attempts to text you like everything was okay.
For all the times I said I missed you and didn’t do anything about it.
For daring to stand up here and call myself your friend, when I didn’t do anything to show it while you were still here with us.
I’m sorry for those meager attempts to text you like everything was okay.
For all the times I said I missed you and didn’t do anything about it.
For daring to stand up here and call myself your friend, when I didn’t do anything to show it while you were still here with us.
This is for you.
The girl who effortlessly managed to achieve a 4.3 GPA through chemotherapy.
The nerd who told me to wear my rounded glasses because the Harry Potter look was cool.
The daughter of parents who have had to experience the wrath of cancer too many times.
The sister of a little boy so mature at such a young age.
This is for the girl who asked him for permission to go with God.
The angel who gave us a glimpse of heaven as she physically left this subordinate earth.
You are the epitome of strength of grace.
So inspiring that even God was in awe as he chose to take you to join Him in His Kingdom to add to the beautifulness that thrives up there.
The girl who effortlessly managed to achieve a 4.3 GPA through chemotherapy.
The nerd who told me to wear my rounded glasses because the Harry Potter look was cool.
The daughter of parents who have had to experience the wrath of cancer too many times.
The sister of a little boy so mature at such a young age.
This is for the girl who asked him for permission to go with God.
The angel who gave us a glimpse of heaven as she physically left this subordinate earth.
You are the epitome of strength of grace.
So inspiring that even God was in awe as he chose to take you to join Him in His Kingdom to add to the beautifulness that thrives up there.
This is for you.
The girl who most likely holds my longest standing friendship.
I wish i could have lived up to that title.
And I hope you will forgive me though I'm not sure if ive forgiven myself yet.
The girl who most likely holds my longest standing friendship.
I wish i could have lived up to that title.
And I hope you will forgive me though I'm not sure if ive forgiven myself yet.
On a less serious side note: I'd appreciate a little more subtle "hello's"...
The whole changing my phones wallpaper to your face thing was a bit creepy, not to mention conceited. Just saying.
But I haven't heard from you in a while so I am assuming you're becoming less clumsy with your wings than you were with your legs. Thank goodness.
Well now senior year has come and gone.
But I haven't heard from you in a while so I am assuming you're becoming less clumsy with your wings than you were with your legs. Thank goodness.
Well now senior year has come and gone.
Without you it didn't feel right.
At graduation... I closed my eyes and covered my ears during that moment of silence in hopes I would hear your voice telling everyone to "quit it with the awkwardness", and I literally facepalmed.
I apologize for getting caught up in the moment, I was just wishing you'd be a few rows in front of me looking back yelling "Kitty we made it" just like 8th grade promotion. And that I'd reply with "Oe I know are you ready for this?"
Except I wouldn't be the one with the horrible speech this time. It'd probably be you.
I don't know how any of us have or will handle it all.
Things like this aren't supposed to happen to people like me and you, remember?
It is amazing how many lives you've touched.
It's been a hard 804 days so far... But the people you've brought together have made it that much more bearable.
I don't know when we will meet again. It seems like I don't know much about anything anymore.
But I do know this.. each day that goes by I get one step closer to seeing you.
And I will live my life accordingly.
Just promise me two things.
One, that you'll give me flying lessons when I hopefully join you up there, because you know I'm as clumsy as you.
And two, tdon't forget about little old me.
Because there's no way I will ever forget about you.
Thank you for nine years of a wonderful friendship.
Magkita na lang tayo mamaya; mahal na mahal kita, Oe.
At graduation... I closed my eyes and covered my ears during that moment of silence in hopes I would hear your voice telling everyone to "quit it with the awkwardness", and I literally facepalmed.
I apologize for getting caught up in the moment, I was just wishing you'd be a few rows in front of me looking back yelling "Kitty we made it" just like 8th grade promotion. And that I'd reply with "Oe I know are you ready for this?"
Except I wouldn't be the one with the horrible speech this time. It'd probably be you.
I don't know how any of us have or will handle it all.
Things like this aren't supposed to happen to people like me and you, remember?
It is amazing how many lives you've touched.
It's been a hard 804 days so far... But the people you've brought together have made it that much more bearable.
I don't know when we will meet again. It seems like I don't know much about anything anymore.
But I do know this.. each day that goes by I get one step closer to seeing you.
And I will live my life accordingly.
Just promise me two things.
One, that you'll give me flying lessons when I hopefully join you up there, because you know I'm as clumsy as you.
And two, tdon't forget about little old me.
Because there's no way I will ever forget about you.
Thank you for nine years of a wonderful friendship.
Magkita na lang tayo mamaya; mahal na mahal kita, Oe.