Can you understand that

I’m hurting?

Can you understand that

It’s killing me?

What you ask is to live

Another stressful 3 months.

Another 3 months of pain and agony.

Another 3 months of painkillers.

How do you not see

That I don't want to live like that.

 

I'm a 17 year old

Who has to rely on painkillers

Just to get through the day.

That is not a life I want to live.

You say

It’s because I’m always on my phone

Or it’s because I don’t do anything.

All I hear is it’s my fault

That I’m the one to blame.

Today

I tried to get you to understand

That I don’t want to do this anymore

I don’t want to keep hurting myself

With all this stress.

 

I am a 17 year old

That has not yet seen the world

Already has so much stress

That walking up in the morning

Has become difficult.

After all of this

You didn't understand.

You asked

Didn't I know what I was getting myself into?

And I did

I knew what I was getting myself into

I just didn't realize

That following something I enjoyed

And at one point loved,

Would hurt me.