Pain? 

This pain i cant seem to tame,

I never thought i would experience this 

because i just miss...

i just miss you, i just miss us

even when people say "it was just lust."

I cant believe nothing is the same anymore,

I loved the way it was before..

Whatever happen to those three words.

They don't have the same rythme as the chords. 

Our minds are messed up and our hearts hurt. 

Oh,

Is there a cure?

For this lonelyness and emptyness i feel inside,

Feeling like i just witness a homicide.

Why does it hurt so much?

Or is it all just bad luck?

All this anger and sadness i let control myself, 

leading to hurt oneself.

I wasn't lying when i said "you're the greatest thing that has ever happened to me."

But you just couldn't see.

You think you're too proud to realize what you've done, 

when I'm full of darkness, when it use to be sun.

But I got to know the real you, 

and i know, you are hurting from this too.

But my question is why?

All those words you said were just silly lies.

How much did you want to hurt me?

Why couldn't you just set me free?

I completely changed over this.

Since our last kiss, 

It's nothing but cruel talks and no warmth hugs.

I'm just drowning in my own sadness, trying not to create a flood.

But you see, I am still smiling, Even though inside i am dying. 

I will still love you no matter what happens between us.

I will always be your shoulder when you need someone to lean on.

You betrayed me, but i can't help it, i still want you to save me. 

But I know things happen for a reason,

all throughout the six month season,

I was the happiest I've ever been.

Who knows if I'll ever be like that ever again. 

But I wish you the best, despite what you did,

as for me, I still rise, even if I'm just a kid.

I will mature one day and look back at the wonderful things we did, 

that i will sadly miss.

Look at what we became,

partly strangers with memories.

Isn't that pretty lame?

If we only knew it was gonna end like this,

I would go back and turn myself the other way.

But thanks for this beautiful adventure.

Without it, i probably wouldn't know how to handle pressure.

I'm so much stronger than i was before.

But it isn't no whatever.

We will get through this, 

together.

Because I know I deserve better, 

So i am ripping all your letters and hoping for the better.

I hope one day you realize what you've done, 

and don't start blaming me for what I become. 

Because you're the reason this whole thing happened, 

the reason i live with sadness.

But that's okay.

I wont let you stay.

So please,

keep it that way.