My mind thinks too much
And yet, i can't think, can't eat, sleep, breathe
I feel a Pandora's box inside
I can't let those emotions out, not now
But I can't keep them in, can't let them win
I can't run outside, I'm not allowed
I can't vent I haven't got the time
But I keep wasting it trying to help my mental health
Talking to friends who just get me pissed off
Could it be that in my endeavor to help I'm making things worse?
If so can I stop the cycle?
Not much else to do. Got a million homework assignments
I can feel myself getting behind by the second
The guilt is weighing down heavily
But the hatred is so deep
The panicked energy flows through my veins
But I can't move, I can't get it out
Call it what you will, anxiety maybe?
I don't know, but I can't talk about it
My friend'll get mad if I tell them their pissing me off
I can't talk to a counselor because they wouldn't understand
Anyone who would understand won't understand everything
So I'm left to take care of this box on my own
Trying not to let it all out
But I have no way to ease it out, no way to vent
My vents, my drawing, my music, my poems
Nothing's working, it's all not working
I'm not working, I don't function properly
My brain is over-thinking, over-analyzing, over-doing everything
I should probably eat, sleep, take a shower, take care of me
But everything just leaves me with this over-energetic lack of energy
I'm not depressed, this is different
I know I'm strong, I'm Overcomer, I believe in myself
But this feeling is something too new
I don't know what to do, I can't even think of rhymes
Something that comes so naturally when I write
I can't even write in couplet, everything is freeverse
But I can't let myself by free of my box, isn't it ironic?
I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't
I know that's all you hear, but what can I do?
I don't know if I can do this