The first time I left my home,

I took everything even my comb,

I was scared on the new outside world,

I thought I knew the world,

but scared to make the wrong friend,

and have a boyfriend,

it was like I was borning,

and always learning,

things on people's lives and my life,

I thought of suicide with a kitchen knife,

I thought staying alive with reasons,

I did but time goes by like seasons,

over the years I was gone I became sad,

and my mind made me go mad,

the friends was different than others,

we became like sisters and brothers,

my happiness left me,

depression and sadness is the only thing I see,

I was always moving to a new school,

most friends say I was cool,

when 8th grade came I had to graduate,

my friend Calie and others wanted to celebrate,

but my friend got a boyfriend,

he became my friend,

when we started to get to know each other,

I wanted to be together,

his name was Chris,

and I will miss,

his perfect smile,

I don't care about his syle,

I felt totally in love,

he is everything I wanted of,

the day we were together having fun,

outside in the hot sun,

that was my perfect day,

and I will always say,

"I was happy when he is here,

I can say this loud and clear,"

the summer was hard and lonely,

I want to live happily,

when freshman year came by,

I thought last year was goodbye,

but I seen him again,

my heart beat began,

but he went away,

my happiness had to pay,

I was never meant to be in love,

I was lower than dirt and never above,

when I am looking for that special guy,

to him I will never lie,

I know now we wasn't be,

as I only see,

as time goes by fast,

my love for him won't last,

I have to move on,

I will still have feelings for him and it won't be gone,

I believe there might be someone better,

if I have courage Chris could read this letter,