Missing Muse
Location
Beauty. Found in the fragile curve of a cheekbone, a jaw, eyes that enchant.
Light falling aslant
across ethereally delicate skin.
The brush crosses the canvas, paint etching
shadows and depth.
It's imperfect, the vision in your mind far from that on paper.
You can't seem to capture it, the delicate taper
of a line,
the play of light and shadow that creates a world.
An artist, you want to give people a taste of the divine, something to rouse
emotion
and create meaning.
You haven't a notion
of how this urge came to be. You only know the stinging
refusal as your hands refuse to make imagination
truth.
Pure frustration
fills your mind. Perfection
is so near, yet still so damn far. It's like an infection
that nothing less than perfect can cure. Dejection
flings its web over you,
whispering lies and half truths
you fear may be your reality.
Is this the feeling
that pulled so many artists before you over the brink of insanity?
Or is it just vanity,
wanting more than what skill you were born with?
If beauty is subjective then is it real?
Chasing that unreachable ideal,
you're caught in an endless loop, no escape but through expression, wanting to feel more than the cold ice of depression.