May 20th

Wed, 05/21/2014 - 01:37 -- MLY

I’m not sad anymore

I can look at you without bursting into tears

I don’t need you anymore.

I still miss you sometimes, but that’s fading.

You’re angry at me though.

Because you were scared Sunday, you drank too much.

You’re angry at me because I wasn’t there.

Because I’ve always been there right?

But now you have her.

And I will not go running back to you.

There are two weeks until graduation.

I can almost taste the freedom.

This was hard. This was really hard.

But something is happening.

I can feel it

And last week I would have been afraid to let it happen.

And this makes you angry, because you regret your decision

And now there’s someone else.

But you made your choice, and now you have to live with it.

And I will live, I will thrive, I will love without abandon once again, because guess what?

I’m back. I’m back. I’m back.

And honey, I’m not ever going back.
Never again will I lose myself in another.

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