I don’t know when I lost you..

It was way before the rape..

Way before the abuse..

Don’t think I had you to begin with..

I used to think I was watching you fade away..

But idek who you are to know what was fading away..

Like a phoenix you keep being reborn..

But each time the new life is parallel to the last..

Maybe life isn’t in you.. That doesn’t make sense but then again none of this does