I talked to my counselor today.
The school won’t let me back to class without a note from a therapist;
My parents are arguing about whose fault this is.
They said I’m broken.
I’m spending more time at school than I ever have before.
I haven’t had a friend over since tenth grade.
I came out to my APUSH class.
My peers were more accepting than my family was.
“Yes, I have a boyfriend.”
“No, this doesn’t mean I chose a side.”
“No, I’m not being indecisive.”
“No, this isn’t for attention.”
“No, I’m not bisexual. Yes, there is a difference.”
My parents said my interests worry them.
They said I made a choice to defy them.
My aunt is getting married.
My grandmother called me & told me her daughter is living in sin.
She said she was glad I was normal.
I think I’m going to tell them.
My dad isn’t talking to his sister any more.
He makes jokes about marriage equality.
Maybe now isn’t the time.
I have a girlfriend.
Oh, my god, I have a girlfriend.
Will my friends like her?
Will my parents like her?
I brought her home.
I didn’t tell them she was my date.
My dad said it wasn’t normal for me to not have brought a boy home.
Later, My mom said “There’s nothing wrong with being gay, but you know.
I don’t have a girlfriend.
He said he loved me.
I wish I never met him.
A boy whistled at me.
This is new.
I saw him yesterday at Japanese School.
He said he’s in high school.
He said I can’t talk to the other boys in class.
He said I’m lucky to have him.
He said it wouldn’t hurt.
I think have a crush on a girl.
She isn’t in my class but I see her at recess.
I told my parents about her.
Mom told Dad I just got my pronouns mixed up.
Am I going to Hell?
Two boys hugged each other at the store.
They hugged for a really long time.
I think they were going to kiss, but Dad made me look away.
He said it wasn’t right?
What’s wrong with it? Girls & boys kiss all the time.
I want someone to live with.
Like my mom & dad.
I wonder if the idea of having a non-straight child kept my parents up the same way it has with me.