Look at me.
I'm standing here...waiting. I've been standing here.
For a while now actually.
Oh now you noticed me. Stop it!
Stop looking at me!
Talking in front of people makes me nervous.
Suddenly each person becomes a monster in my head
who will eat me if I talk to them.
During a presentation my face gets red.
Just flushed completely tomato red.
I start my sentence...
...Hi. My presentation is on...uhm...
...and it slips away.
And I'm left there just standing. Mouth open.
Happens with friends too.
A group of 10 or so. Just laughing.
Say something! C'mon say something!
They're just my friends.
I say something...
...and I sound stupid.
Someone asks me a question and I'm on the spot.
"Hey what's your idea for the project?"
Oh I was...thinking...yeah thinking is good...
I answer and give the most ridiculous response in the world.
Just so simple minded.
But it doesn't sound that way in my head I swear!
But it's so comfortable to hide.
To hide under a hoodie and keep walking past.
Always being alone is tiring though.
I want to escape it. To not be afraid.
To not be afriad to talk for more than half a sentence.
I've never had stage fright, so why can't life be a stage?
But I'll keep standing here.
Waiting for a moment to talk.
And speak half my thought.