Longing

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Backround: The girl’s family has had a lot of problems. Still trying to find her way, she has to deal with her family’s problems and mistakes daily.

 

Life is a burden to this girl, it feels as though it always wants to tear her apart.

There’s always tons to deal with in her world,  but sticking it through is her art

 

She comes home one day to find her mother in a fright, wide eyed not knowing what’s goin on

“Mommy,” she says “what do you sight?, What have you been staring at for so long?”

 

She says to me, “Honey, it’s nothing,” and she shuts herself in a room

When she comes out I know it’s something, and I see her eyes filled with doom

 

The next day she come home,  here they go fighting, her mother and her mother’s mother

Her father is phoned, and soon comes with her sisters and her brother

 

Her mother tells her she will be back, for her soon one day

But longing for something she lacked, the price she and her mom had to pay

 

The first month with her dad, could have been better

Suprisingly, it wasn’t that bad, and sometimes she would get letters

 

She missed her mom dearly, she would see her sometimes

Until she learned something dreary, depressing along those lines

 

Soon, she would see her mom in rehabilization, not something she wanted to see

Why she had to go to that confindmentation, is something she did not want to believe

 

Then, it happened she walked to her bedroom door, she didn’t no what to even say

A picture and a picture more, and she found that her dad’s girlfriend, was here to stay

 

How did she feel, she thought she was happy as can be

But to be real, she was blind and couldn’t see

 

From that point on, all her feelings were hid

They were gone, and never found again

After that moment she was always accused, and being treated different

They said she was never true, and fulll of resentment

 

Well, for years this kept going, with something added to it

For her other family is her longing, and abuse was something that bit

 

Emotionally and physically hurt, but not as much

Mentally is something that threw her in the dirt, and tore all three up

 

The day she tried to speak out, it didn’t even work

She was too scared to whisper or shout, the ways she had be hurt

 

So it kept building up until she got in trouble, and she knew that eventually it would only take one hit

So, then the family little secret fell into ruble, and the social worker told him about the beatings, to spare it

 

He yelled and yelled about how he didn’t want to see her anymore

How she would fail, just like her mother and she would be something he would ignore

 

Her mother returns and much better than before

From her mistakes the girl does learn and loves her mom even more

 

Although her father still wants his control and wants her life in his hands

And when he comes she stops, drops, and rolls and as there’s still something she doesn’t understand

 

She believes her life is great now, all though she is still longing

She thinks about how, it could be better if her father would just keep going

 

But her mother is in her life, and so is her family still

She is still going through strife, figuring out how she feels

 

She out of that home and has a long way to come

A million things unknown, and its stil 5,000 to none

 

Life is a burden to this girl, it feels as though it always wants to tear her apart.

There’s always tons to deal with in her world,  but sticking it through is her art

 

 

 

 

 

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