A letter to my mother
Our time together was just an instant
It doesn't matter how distant
I have been told a lot about hearts
As if you saw love as a game of darts
Some people will get close to the center
But none will hit the direct middle and enter
This game we call love
you said to let your heart go like a dove
Because we can't keep things
You have to let them have wings
I remember waking up at 2
Wondering what we will do
As we got in the car and went adventure to the river
As I shivered
Because it was Alaska and it was cold
Doesn't matter how old
No matter what your age you would have been taken to soon
I remember that noon
Waiting for you at the school
Wanting to go to the pool
I remember looking at the sun
Not knowing what God had done
I think about you a lot
In the timeline of my life you are the knot
Where I stopped to cry
Not ever getting up to dry
I drenched myself in tears
It's better than trying to fix depression with beers
I am not like you,
I don't know what to do
I was never strong for myself
And that was never good for my health
Every time I am called your name
I feel a little bit of shame
Because it should be you here
Not me deer,
I have dreams of you
Where we go and do
All the mistakes of my youth
Like when I lost my first tooth
I will always love you
and I know you love me to.
Your love is something I have never known
By the time I was grown
You had already been gone ten years
Through all those fears.