Leaving
A red Mickey Mouse shirt
wrinkled, in the back of my closet
when I was six
smells like cotton candy
you gave me, mother
when you rubbed my sticky shirt with soft, licked thumbs
twelve sizes too small
a wrinkle in the fabric of now
I am clothed in collared shirts and cologne
to cover the smell of rain
on nights I remember your large, smooth hands
wiping away the showers
you are old thread
and weeping into the stomach of worn cloth
that I have left with you
in the lining of this house
you cry into a dry porcelain tub
like wet wringing fabric
where you bathed me in bubbles
and wait at the front door
like clothes hung to dry
for tiny steps
as I step into shirts twelve sizes too big
and you wonder
will you hear that small pitter patter
again, as you bury your face
into cotton
and wash it
until it fades.