It's ok not to be ok
Did you tell them you were ok
Did you laugh it off and shake your head because
nobody wants to look weak.
Did you walk calmly out the door but run
full speed to the nearest spot of isolation when you hit the other side because
they can'tsee your hurt now.
Did you listen to yourself cry
I mean did you really listen
What did it sound like
Could it pass for a case of the sniffles or did it sound like
your world come tumbling down.
Was it the type of cry that shook your soul and left you breathless
Or even worse, was it silent...
Did you try screaming for help but
couldn't seem to find your voice anymore
Did you stare stare into a mirror and watch your tears fall
covering your mouth willing yourself not to make a sound
Did your chest burn like the liquor that you
thought was putting out emotional fires building
but was always stoking
So why did you look into their eyes
and with every ounce of fight you had left in you
tell them you were ok