I’ve seen apart of me I didn’t recognize.
Through my eyes I saw how my reactions to your actions, made me low, low point on the scale,
I’ve inhale, what you’ve exhaled to me.
I’ve misplaced my intake of the mistakes I’ve made.
I’ve been shut down, shut out.
I speak no words.
I hear the loudness of silence
This love is blind to a 20/20 vision of hate.
Loyalty is deaf to the untruthful words spoken.
You hurt me constantly, consistently, me, unknowingly
Being played, while you play your games,
Playing hearts, playing feelings,
Played like a toy, been bought, used, abused and tossed to the trash.
My ashes are put to rest.
I’m too old to tolerate the bullshit
Who do you think you are?
What gives you the right?
I don’t deserve endless tears, day by day anger and disappointments,
Waiting for you to change.
I’m impatiently impatient, so I don’t take being patient too patiently.
So I won’t be waiting too much longer,
The clock ticks and ticks
And flicks my impatience button.
But I’ll try to wait, wait on you
Wait on change
That’s all I can do…is wait.