Imagine
Calling a quits with this game doesn't make you weak
We live to die right?
So why is it when someone moves out before their eviction notice they are frowned upon?
God should be the only one shaking his head bc the one he created destroyed them self and the plans he had for them
Instead everyones telling you how it's going to be okay but they haven't lived a day in your shoes
If you tried on my shoes they wouldn't fit
You couldn't bear the weight being on your shoulders and every time you think you've freed yourself from those chains life crashes again
No matter how hard you try to succeed there's a voice always in your head bringing you down
Imagine having your family put you down when you need them the most
See some of you have supportive families but imagine being me
Just when all I want is my families approval they tell me "you can't do it"
Who's going to support you if not your family first?
They'll wish they supported me when it's too late and i'm in the back of a hearse
Even when everyone is cheering me on it means nothing when the people you want approval from the most don't believe in you
Hell, I don't believe in myself
Who's to encourage me when I look in the mirror and I see failure
I wake up and only see every time I failed
Out of all the beauty I see the flaws
My mirror displays all the pain and hurt I went through
Instead of seeing who god made me I see the pain that I allow to define me
Imagine going to sleep not caring if you wake up
Imagine never looking forward to anything
Everything you looked forward to doesn't matter anymore
Imagine waking up depressed because you have to play this game of life again
Suicide isn't a sudden decision
It's an on going process
It's having a wonderful day but going to your room realizing you still hate your life
Turning to self hurt
Becoming a masochist
It's so deep that you could burn yourself with a lighter and still feel nothing
YOU'RE DEAD
..but you're living
It's cutting your skin so deep you're barely missing veins
It's watching the blood drip and feeling relieved
It's sick ..
It's feeling temporary happiness but wishing you were alone so you could hurt yourself to feel that high again
It becomes a way of life
An addiction
All because you didn't love yourself
People are calling you weak but imagine if every morning you woke up angry because you survived
Imagine every night hurting yourself just to feel good
Imagine knowing you don't want to live anymore but still continuing out your day because if you cancelled your lease in this game people would be hurt
Imagine having the key to ending your life that you hate but you're still not putting that key in the door and walking to the darkness
Imagine the strength that I have for staying on this earth every day when I've come so close to ending my life
Imagine the day I no longer care about others feelings and I put my feelings first
Imagine that one day hurting myself is no longer enough ..
Imagine the times you called me weak but, now you too are feeling the way I once felt and now you understand.
IMAGINE