"I'm so OCD"
Location
My thoughts are racing but they only go in circles
They're coming for you
Turn the lights on and off 14 times
You're gonna get pregnant
Smoke another cigarette
They're coming for you
Touch the wall 14 times
He hates you
Smoke another cigarette
You're gonna die
Hesitate as you reach for the light switch
These obsessions are a constant onslaught of anxiety
Others seem innocent
Research everythign you can about your condition
Convince yourself you don't have it
You're faking it
Smoke another cigarette
Life is so much prettier through the eyes of someone else
So much eaasier when you can't feel your stomach sinking
Can't hear the screaming thoughts
Insisting everything is bad and everyoen will die and it is all your fault
They're coming for you
Tap the wall 14 times
HE hates you
Flip the light switch 14 times
"I'm so OCD about this"
Smoke another cigarette
I'm not saying others aren't suffering
I jsut liek to think
Maybe without this I'd be happier
Maybe if i didn't cling onto these obsessions so hard
I could be closer to normal
Closer to happy
They're coming coming for you
Ignore the growing panic as you are stopped in the middle of a ritual
He hates you
Accept that yo uare terrible as you pass the wall without a single touch
See, I'm getting the compulsions under control
So I'm getting better right?
These obsessions will not stop though
As I stay up for hours trying to figure out if bottles water has flouride in it
Stay up counting all the reasons I have failed and that he hates me
They all hate me
Touch the wall 14 times
Beg for relief
Pretend I'm okay
Take 14 pills
Smoke 7 cigarettes and tell myself he doesn't hate me
Why do you hate me I scream
He insists he doesn't but these thoughts keep coming
They all hate me
Flip the light switch 14 times
Touch the wall 14 times
Smoke another cigarette
The lightbulb is burning out
Flip the light switch 14 times