I never knew that one day would be the last hello.
On that corner under our tree with the dream,
Every hurricane of emotion stops; let’s go
With that hint of a distanced gleam
When I see the familiar face of a stranger;
When I see the beginning of the tragedy.
How intensely I know I must go, I will not linger
On that spot where our lives crossed happily.
I was a light in the darkness with grand hues,
Twirling about with an enchanting ease
And how you began to laugh and exuded
All of your distrust and past idiosyncrasies
Whilst sheltered by hope and under a spell.
I have to go now, I bid you a farewell.
No longer am I a child bounded in ignorance.
No longer are you holding my rainbow umbrella.
Words of love wove and spun into indifference
Revealing a fake and imposing Cinderella.
The dreamer has settled for reality
And now guards her heart from lies and cheats.
And you still quake with your instability;
Unable to trust after your own deceit.
The damage is done; the records destroyed
The fire diminished; the promises broken.
History found a way to sneak in and toy
With your stone heart and lustful tokens.
And while you sit begging with tears in your eyes,
I’m sorry, for me, I must say my final goodbyes.
I sat and watched as happy spring days
Crumble and froze into cold winter grays.
My innocence taken and to my dismay,
Was broken from your frequent betrays.
Your angry words and damaging blows
Taught me to force my thoughts numb,
And while you blamed me for all of the lows
I grew up and faced the fact that I am young.
Every memory I strived to push away; to outrun
And every painful day I tried to put out.
But oh how you pulled until you finally won,
Leaving me in ruins with nothing left but doubt.
This time though, it is not as precieved;
This time though, I swear, is my last leave.
Now there is a renewed face walking the street.
Today the heart has stirred and reawakened
To a world full of colors and youthful beats
While a jagged scar a reminder for re-dedication.
I honestly wish you the best in this life
But please do not look to me for support.
If you are ever lonely and surrounded by strife,
Look away and find a different end resort.
It kills me to see those haunted eyes and shaken smile;
It pains me to know I can’t reverse this story.
It’s hard to walk away. Trust me, every sickening mile
Is as if I’m burning out in a lost and grotesque glory.
But you can’t change nor can I forget all the ways.
It hurts to be so close but so far. This is it. I cannot stay.