I am working.
Don't bother me right now.
I don't want to be mean,
But there are priorities,
They determine how much I can care about something.
Right now, work is my prioroty,
And you aren't.
I am sorry
I can't be more open to you,
I am always working
Towards my end goal,
And then what,
After I reach it,
After I've accomplished it?
I am hoping
You'll still be there for me,
To listen to me, because a lot of times,
There's no one but me.
I am alone
But I'm not.
My head can get pretty loud at times,
My inner voice screaming into the void,
That cry pushing out from the inside.
But all the while
I am quiet.
Most of the interesting things I say in my head,
Most of them have already been said by much smarter people.
I am overly dramatic
Or possibly psychotic,
At times, it's hard to tell which.
But one thing is certain:
I am so self-derrogatory,
I always feel the need to bring myself down a level
Even if I'm at the bottom.
Its hard for me to speak possitively about myself
By my own measure,
They are nothing,
I am nothing.
Nothing at all.
Nothing special about me.
To set me apart.
I am overreactive.
When I panic, I make idiotic mistakes, for which I kick myself repeatedly.
I am lazy.
How many more scholarships could I get if I sat down and wrote a few lousy essasys?
I am judgemental of others.
When anyone does anything, I immediately criticize them, mentally.
I am a terrible person,
According to my own judgement.
But to go by this one authority,
I am wrong.
I have no reason to do that to myself.
I am smart.
I state the obvious, but my teachers tell me that nothing is obvious to everyone.
I am creative.
When inspiration revives my mind, I can see an epic unfold behind my eyes.
I am caring.
When people need someone, I know I can't help them, but I find someone who can,
And they've let me know that that has helped.
I am more
Than what I give myself credit for.
I am loved
By everyone I know,
They are happy to know me.
I make their days better, however I can.
Here is where I would usually cut myself down.
Minimize who I am,
But not this time.
I am accepting that
I am a good person
Who puts others before himself.
I must never forget
I am a good person
Who treats everyone with respect.
Why should I care what I think?
I am happy
To know that
I am a good person.
I am also a good worker.
So I'd better get back to work.
I am busy.