i am.... within myself.
but how can someone define oneself?
from the time i was four people said i would be nothing
never thinking i would grow up into something
being an alien within my fmily thinking does this make me different?
never knowing that when i grow up i would be brilliant.
smart? no. educated. something my family doesnt know,
never knowing all the places that i could go
im torn between staying and getting beat by the one i love
or do i go and see what god has for me above
i leave, with the scars on my back and my past behind me
im free to start being who i want to be.
but is that enough? with my past still lingering
and my nightmares still haunting me, is it enough that im free?
no its not...i need more, i crave more, so what do i do?
standing on the edge of tomorrow which is not promise, what do i do?
i listen. to everything and everyone who is around me telling me im not alone.
i stand up to fight against every struggle in my life. i swing.
i know that ive hit every obstacle, but why am i not getting closer to the finish line and why does it hurt?
because the obstacle that are standing in my way of living my life... well they are me
i am... within myself keeping myself from being free
but im done... i am....