I meet you in track,
You were a long jumper and I was long distance runner.
You know what,
I had fallen in love with your dorky laugh and smile.
However you are younger than me,
I was a high school senior and you were an 8th grader.
I had fallen in love with a child,
Is it wrong to love a child?
It did not felt wrong.
I later found out that you were in love with me,
Even after finding out I was four years older than you,
You stilled loved me.
April 29, mark the day I became your girlfriend,
You hand me a rose that you cop out of the school.
Well actually our friends did.
You were so embarrassed to say, “Will you be my girlfriend,”
I was you happy, but then I realize I had made a mistake.
It has been almost two month since my last break up,
That day I told myself, if anything were to happen,
It would be have been my fault.
If only I let it go,
If only I haven’t lost you,
If I left the past be the past you could have stayed.
It has been two years since you left,
And each day, there will me something that remind me of you.
I still remember our first kiss,
It felt strange but your kisses were like a drug, so addicting.
Why am I a fool to still continue to wait for you?
Why don’t you just get out my head, and my heart,
If I continue to wait I will just end up getting hurt.
I know you won’t come back,
I know that we are not the same people we were when we first fell in love.
But why do you continue to stay in head, in my heart.
Am I still in love with you?
Or do I just miss the memory of being love and being embraced?
Sometime I wish you were still beside me,
Sometimes I wish you knew how much you meant to me.