How Can I Live?
How can you live?
You. You who want
More than anything to die
You say that each day you look in the mirror
With a knife blade held
Ready to kill
You speak of bedsheets and blood
Strangling, lungs with no air to fill
You're depressed, I know
But in my heart, I don't
I don't want you to die, but does that mean
I have to live for you?
I won't
You lay your burdens on me
And I take them gratefully
Carrying them up the hill like a mule
But all the while smiling
Because if i don't smile
What will happen?
Will you fall of the edge of a cliff,
Or would you jump?
I hear your cries of anguish
I know you want to be heard
But why, of all people
Why by me?
It's absurd
I don't know you that well, least of all
Your heart
And yet you caught me and used me
Right from the start
I feel ill
Every day
When i think of what i did
How i told your parents
Gave you a choice
A choice to make it
And live
You hated me
Deep in your heart
And i never wanted it
I didn't ask for it
And it tears me apart
So now you're better
And i'm still the same
And i wonder
How can i live?