To My Beloved Chris,  Something about you makes my heart race  That's why I don't want this to go fast-pace  You are on my mind all day,  During all hours of sleep, work, and play  If you don't want this anymore I'd understand,  But please let me tell you how I feel when you take my hand:  My stomach does a thousand flips  I get a slight tingling between my hips.  As strange as this may sound,  My favorite time of day is when you're around.  When you're away my heart longs for you  And I begin to feel blue.  Then you appear,  And I let go of my fear.  I am whole again  Because I am with my best friend  Someone I could see myself loving  Someone I want to be constantly hugging.  I have been heart broken before  But none like the feeling I'd get if you walked out the door  Your eyes see into me  From all doubts and insecurities I am free  For once I was one to turn to the blade  Those memories will eventually fade.  I no longer need to express my anger that way  Just know that I trust you with everything I say  I have been screwed over so many times  I have been the victim of countless crimes  You must realize how difficult this is for me-  Shoving my past in a bottle and pitching it out to sea.  I want that part of me gone  But it's been around for so long  Every day is a struggle  All these problems are just too difficult to juggle  You may not know it  But that chapter of my book you lit  now the ashes will rise  And be forever lost in our colorful skies  You gave me a reason to stay healthy  And a reason to fix- me!  I don't want you to see the Carlee I WAS ever again  One who would constantly sin  Who I am now is who I will stay  And you help me every day  You've assisted me in my journey to find myself  The old me has been placed on a shelf  You must have put a spell on me  Because by you is where I long to be  So this is how you make me feel  These feelings are from my heart and oh, so real  there's nowhere I'd rsther be than with you  This thing we have is true  It's real  These are just a fraction of the ways you make me feel  My dear beloved Chris,  Is it too much to ask for a kiss?