Will I ever finally get the chance?

To finally get the chance to experience true romance.

To know what it's like to finally be in love,

And to have the kind of love that I have been dreaming of.

I know I am someone who never gives in,

But I would love for it to go beyond a simple hi and a friendly grin.

It seems like I always get so close before it all falls apart,

And each time it happens, it takes a little piece of my heart.

The last time it happened cause me to shut the door,

Because I finally realized that love is not something that you should have to fight for.

I know that with every heartbreak, you are supposed to be one step closer to finding the one,

But it is so hard to continue to have faith when you know you need to be done.

You put a smile on your face and pretend that everything is okay,

But no one knows that you fall apart at the end of everyday.

You try so hard to be happy and to not let anyone see the pain that you are going through,

But deep down, it feels like there is nothing left for me to do.

I tried to change who I am to become what I think you need,

But you decided to leave as soon as I caught feelings and you planted the seed.

In the end, I realized that all I was was an ego boost for you,

And you did what everyone else did, knowing everything that I had been through.

When I was falling apart, you came into my life,

And I never thought you would be the one to twist the knife.

You gave me hope when I didn't believe in love anymore,

But now you are the reason that I feel the need to finally shut that door.

You made me feel happy again after not feeling that in so long,

And now I see that I had it all wrong.

Now I know not to put your happiness in someone else's hands,

Because when everything feels good, the truth is you never know exactly where you stand.

It turns out you are just like the others, when I thought you were a good man,

But now I see that leading me on was all just a part of your plan.