I am screaming from the depth of my soul

Trapped in the body of a 3-year-old

Searching for love that abandoned me

My parent  wasn’t there for me

I felt a loneliness deep inside of me

we reunited after a few years, and I held back my tears

It was weird; me

how can a person be so near me?

be so far from me.

Hate could be contagious 

Love is addictive 

The outcome of my life was predicted 

Deep in my subconscious everything matter

I’m searching with a flashlight in the depths of my soul, looking for good memories that I can  remember

I just wanted my mama to love me a little 

Papa to take me to the park and play with me a little but

He was gone forever 

I was confused hoping  that one day we would see each other  

That would be good news

But they are going to lose

other people’s thoughts are embedded. 

if I could 

I would prevented it 

but had no choice 

Had voice 

I couldn’t  speak out 

So I stay silent

My heart was telling me to get violent

But I was screaming from the depth of my soul

Trapped in the body of a 3-year-old

Searching for the love that abandoned me

Heartache and pain

No one understood

it’s Driving me insane

These are things I never forgot

Poverty put me in a trap

It was hard to escape 

 I was patient 

I had to sit back and watch 

Many days I was tense but I had to pretend that I’m loving it

thinking that my family will come back 

They never did 

They never did

There were times when I didn’t want to live 

 

They claim that they will protect me

They put me in a home with people

who didn't love me They saw me as a dollar bill

So they and their biological can live 

I got hip to the process so I processed the process. 

So I made up my mind that one day I will be a success

No Hugs

No kisses

So I act out just so that I can move out to the next house to escape the abuse 

I refuse to be touched again

By grown men and women who can’t see the hurt that they are causing 

The pain that I am feeling 

Many nights I cried

screaming from the depth of my soul wondering why

My parent abandoned me.