first time//last time



i wanted you immediately

and told you so 

early in october

one late night

you said you couldn't take advantage

but i soon found out

that i was to take the advantage

and the virginity

in more ways than one and

looking back fondly

i can only cry

thinking about the first time


was last week the last time

i get to feel your body on mine

biting at your neck and licking your chest

in a haze of smoke and booze 

you had me and i had you but

how could this end with that drunken fuck

followed by sleeping the day away

i need more i need more i need more

i feel at peace in your arms



so i message you

in hopes that you'll bring some sort of clarity

to the situation



"was that the last time?"


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